Fortune Cookie Wisdom

I have been blogstipated. For. Like. Ever. Nearly two seasons have come and gone...and not a single word. I have so much to say. So much wisdom to impart. And yet I sit here not knowing where to start. I know I could start at Chapter One - as I am so very good at beginnings - but it's the where to go thereafter that has me somewhat stymied. I have spent the better part of the year growing, learning, celebrating, mourning, remembering, forgetting - or at least trying to. The blame. The anger. I am just so tired. Am looking forward to looking backward and feeling the relief that I survived what has been a difficult emotional journey, even if it was the best outcome for all. He - the target of so much anger and blame...he - who in retrospect was never 100% to blame...taped this very message to my computer monitor years - if not lifetimes - ago..."Mistakes are often the stepping stones to success." And so I must learn from this...forgive him...forgive myself...and move forward. Recognise that not all of it was a mistake - for there are so many moments I'd do over exactly the same as they still make me smile....while the moments that made me cry are slipping further and further away. So here's to a new season with a fresh outlook - head up making eye contact with the world, working towards - not against - all I want, and of course the odd stepping stone thrown in along the way.